Some things have come up in the last 24 hours that are making it difficult for me to stay in my place. I'm only writing about it here, now, because I think that it will help me to remember. I am out of contact with Sir now indefinitely. I am not sure when I will hear from him again or have a moment to speak to him. It is not a punishment or anything like that. Really, I think that is what is making it all so difficult. Unplanned, unexpected, uninformed..... So I find myself grasping for any and all things that remind me that I am strong enough to handle this and stand on my own. Also, that it was unplanned not only for me but for him as well and he too is suffering. I know he would want me to understand and continue to do everything expected even though I am not currently in his presence. That is what is going to help me to get through today, tomorrow, this weekend... or however long it takes before I can hear from him again. That invisible tie that holds me to him.
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i can so much relate to this. My Owner is travelling a lot because of His work. And when He's gone our contact is at a minimum or even sometimes there is no contact at all. And our contact when we are not together isn't that much to begin with. Thru e-mail, textmessages and very rare thru phonecalls. That's it. I have written something about it, when He was away and i couldn't handle the 'silence' at that moment.
I wish strength for you.
And our contact when we're not together; meaning in between our meetings. We're not living together.
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